Ich langweile mich (Obsession)

Ich langweile mich (Obsession)

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Ich langweile mich - "I'm bored", or in the context of the song's lyrics more like "I bore myself"
In German "Ich langweile mich" could mean both - so it's just a little dumb play on words,
however actually I'm not so sure if the effect of that play on words hits that hard... Honestly I doubt it - Anyways...

The lyrics talk about someone, who is so obsessive about someone else to the point that he can not think for or of himself, neglecting his own life and future.
The lyrical I bores himself as he instead finds himself fantasizing about the other person being (seemingly) much more interesting and having both feet on the ground.

Sound-wise I went for an approach I normally wouldn't go for at all, but I thought I experiment a bit with this little acoustic guitar track.
I originally wanted to do the song with just 4 to 8 tracks... At the end I had 24 because I guess I'm a bit of a "perfectionist", in some way at least.
I recorded the guitar with the singing in the same take, which I normally wouldn't do either, but I think I kinda like that "direct" sound it created.
I also simultanously recorded the same take with my shitty cell phone; than combining the one with my good mic and the one with the bad mic.
To my surprise it really sounded pretty good combined (in my opinion at least).
Then I added some atmospheric sounding nicely chirping crickets that I recorded with my bad cell phone mic, a bass part, some sliced dirty guitar and a shaker.
I also doubled some of the vocal parts, badly.

I did not polish the song too much, because I really wanted to do something dirtier than the more recent stuff I did.
I'm not used to have all that noise and dirt in my songs, but I somehow missed it.
My earlier works (when I didn't have Cubase) more often featured noisier guitars and dirty, unclean production, whereas I loose that term production very loosly :-P.

Enjoy!

English Translation of the lyrics:

For as long as I can think, I've only been thinking of you
It may does not seem possible, but I know it is.
Life begins and I have to concentrate.
But all my thoughts are only about you.
My inner voice always comes to you
and no matter what I do - you seem more important ...

I don't know what I want - I only know what you want
I don't know who I am - I only know who you are.
I hardly know myself, but do I want that anyway? Because:
I bore myself.

For as long as I can calculate I've been comparing myself to you
You have more pears, more apples than I ever did.
Everything you do always looks so confident.
You are so lively and I am more like paralyzed.
All of my behavior is related to you,
but it doesn't matter what I do, it seems to be nonsense.

I don't know what I want - I only know what you want.
I don't know who I am - I only know who you are.
I don't know myself, but do I want that at all?
I bore myself, I bore myself, I bore myself.

I've been bored with myself since I know you.
because you are much more vital and interesting ...

For as long as I can remember, I've only been thinking of ...

Lyrics: 

Seit ich denken kann, denke ich nur an dich
Vielleicht klingt das nicht möglich, doch ich weiß, dass es so ist.
Das Leben beginnt und ich muss mich konzentrieren.
Aber all' meine Gedanken handeln nur von dir.
Meine innere Stimme kommt immer auf dich
und egal, was ich tue - Du scheinst wichtiger...

Ich weiß nicht, was ich will - ich weiß nur, was du willst
Ich weiß nicht, wer ich bin - ich weiß nur, wer du bist.
Ich kenne mich kaum, aber will ich das überhaupt? Denn:
Ich langweile mich.

Seit ich rechnen kann, vergleiche ich mich mit dir
Du hast mehr Birnen, mehr Äpfel als ich je.
Alles, was du tust, wirkt immer so souverän.
Du bist so lebhaft und ich eher wie gelähmt.
Mein ganzes Handeln bezieht sich auf dich
Aber egal was ich tu', es scheint Unsinn zu sein.

Ich weiß nicht, was ich will - ich weiß nur, was du willst
Ich weiß nicht, wer ich bin - ich weiß nur, wer du bist.
Ich kenne mich nicht, aber will ich das denn?
Ich langweile mich. Ich langweile mich. Ich langweile mich.

Ich langweile mich seit ich dich kenn',
denn du bist viel vitaler und interessanter...

Seit ich denken kann, denke ich nur an...



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Comments

nancyrost's picture

The dramatic pauses work really well with the intense vocal and electric guitar. The repetition is obsessive, but not boring!

Kurtis Kanttila's picture

Your vocals hit with great power, a lot of emotion and intensity. Lots of crackling energy in this track, I like the additional instruments. Adds a lot in the second half of the song. There is a great feeling conveyed here, and the rawness of the track suits it.

Fuzzy's picture

Oh man, your acoustic guitar playing is excellent; the chord choice, the pauses, everything.
I'm liking the doubled vocals.
A menacing vibe here.
I really hear a Krautrock influence here.
Lovely ending.
Wow, yeah, this is a really excellent tune for sure.
I've Watchlisted you so I don't miss any of your future tunes.